Uhm, I am really sorry for not posting for so long.Β  I have received some concerned messages and I apologize for making you worry. I Had my midface augmentation surgery done on 21. June and everything went well. Two 4mm thick medpor implants are now sitting on my orbital rims and I am almost healed from the surgery.

My doctor did an amazing thing. He (and his team) operated my eye area trough my mouth, so I have no visible scars.

I will post a little more and also some photos when I can, I am extremely busy because of my new job and my granny’s temporarily worsened health condition.

But I will keep you updated, I promise.


An Crouzon syndrome e-book?

I have been wondering lately… since my journey will be finished this spring (if things go well), should I write and try to publish a book or e-book regarding crouzon syndrome, coping with the illness, tips for pacients and their families and such? Most of websites just do not cover this thema – even the foundations seem to have very little to say.

I would include my photos during the surgery phase, childhood photos and also medical tips in cooperation with doctors. It would not be a thick one, but I think such a book could help many people and provide information to anybody who is interested.

Of course, this book would have to be sold either online as an ebook or printed (not sure how really, probably some on demand publishing service? I do not know any UK/US based publisher who would be interested, do you?), because I just can not spend a lot of time writing  and polishing it completely for free. Books are not blogs 😦

What do you think?

Anyway, here, as a special absolutely free reward for your time, have an axolotl newt picture stolen from the web πŸ™‚

Do you feel special now? πŸ˜‰

Fighting the illness

So, lets see an overview of my fight with Crouzon syndrome.Β  I borrowed some characteristics from some websites

Characteristics often associated with Crouzon Syndrome:

  • Flattened back and top of head – can not be repaired, even though I had a skull surgery as a 2 years old baby (when we count surgeries, this one would be number 0 – the lifesaving one.)
  • Flattened forehead – I would love to have a normal forehead, but I probably will not get a forehead surgery. In my case, it would require some sort of implant or added material to forehead bones and I am not sure if I am vain enough to go through the pain and potencial risc for them. I would kill to have normal, not narrow and flattened temples though. 😦
  • Retruded (hypoplasic) midface and missing/flattened cheekbones – well, this is a tough one and is slowly being repaired surgery after surgery. The 3rd surgery should have a major impact on my midface, so lets see if it can solve this problem.
  • Shallow eye sockets – will be solved by my 3rd surgery
  • Protruding eyeballs– will be solved by my 3rd surgery
  • Beaked like nose– well, my nose is quite ok in this way, I might not even need a rhinoplasty
  • Protruding lower jaw– has been completely solved by my 1st and 2nd surgery (mostly the 2nd)
  • Overcrowding of teeth – the 1st surgery(SARPE)Β  and ortho treatment solved it almost perfectly
  • Narrow high arched palate– the 1st surgery(SARPE)Β  and ortho treatment solved it almost perfectly
  • Narrow nasal passages – solved by surgery 1 and 2 (the 1st one helped quite a lot already, 2nd opened the passages even more)
  • Bite problems – class III maloclussion and open bite completely solved by surgery 1 and 2 and orthodontic treatment)
  • Cleft Palate – NO

Problems which can occur with Crouzon Syndrome:

  • Hearing loss- NO
  • Absence of ear canals- NO
  • Deformity of middle ears- NO
  • Vision problems- i have minor vision problems and eye irritation, but nothing major
  • Crossed eyes – NO
  • Involuntary movement of eyes – NO
  • Curvature of the spine – NO
  • Vertigo and dizziness – sometimes 😦
  • Facial deformity – YES
  • Deformity of limbs – NO
  • Webbed toes – NO
  • Minear’s Disease – NO

Well, lets look at it this way. I am really really lucky to not have any of the additional problems associated with Crouzon’s and most of the facial bone structure problems have been already solved or will be solved this year. I will never look completely normal, because my forehead and skull will remain somewhat flattened and disorted even after all the surgeries I went through.

Overally, I really recommend going the multiple surgery route with Crouzon, it can be life changing. (Although always check for possible complications of each procedure and take time to consider, if you are willing to go through the risk. I did and thats the reason why I am NOT having Le Fort II or Le Fort III. Loss of the sense of smell or partial loss of vision is not something I am willing to go through in case things went very very bad.)

Spring surgery approved

I had a visit at my ortho and one of my surgeons (who is also chief surgeon of the maxfac department) and guess what? I got a YES for my next surgery. Apparently, the jaw is healing well, the clicking will subside in time (and I got some useful tips how to deal with the clicking, stiffness and ocassional pain). My ortho also thinks that if I patiently wear the rubber bands in the new positions, I could be debraced this spring, even though I still have to wear a retainer 24/7 for a while after I am brace-free.

Anyway, it seems good news to me. I already announced the spring surgery at work as well and it seems they do not mind πŸ™‚

By the way, this is me now. The swelling is 100% gone now.

Not much is happening in my life lately. I lost job because of the last surgery and recovery time, got a new one, finished my book (http://www.candar.org/en/?page_id=5), also I am really enjoying free breathing through my nose and that I can chew and bite properly for the first time in my life… all these small things that do not need much writing about, at least not on this site.

As the Christmass is aproaching, everyone asks me what I want for gifts. To be honest, all I wish for is that my next surgery really happens in spring as planned and that everything goes well. I want a nice face as a belated christmass gift and if possible, I would like to not lose a job thanks to surgery and recovery.

I am still wearing braces and elastic bands on the right side of my jaws, because it still needs a small rotation to right.Β  My orthodontist said that if everything goes well, I might have my braces removed this pring. God, I can not even imagine how it will feel to not have them anymore. But it would be awesome to have a metal-less smile for once πŸ™‚

The cheekbone surgery is pending. It will not happen sooner than spring 2010, but there is a chance that my bones will not be ready yet or the bite is not fixed yet, or Earth gets hit by a huge life erasing meteorite or something similar, that prevents me from getting it.

But I am still hoping πŸ˜‰

Oh… and I also the feeling might be strating to return to my upper front teeth after all. I think I am starting to feel pain sometimes, which is a good thing. I thought the numbness is permanent.

Guess what?

Yes, I am still alive!

I am sorry that I neglected this blog for so long, but life has been really strange, busy and I have been extremely extremely lazy when it comes to blogging or posting anything online. I do not know why really.

My surgery went quite well, even though I had some complications that involved massive bleeding and required donor blood transfusions and I had only minor post-op problems.

What I can say is… its really strange to have a completely different bite suddenly. My jaw was cut in Le Fort I line and slided forward about 1cm. My front teeth now meet and the upper ones slightly overlap. I had to learn how to talk, drink and eat once again and I was banded tightly for 6 weeks (so yes, 6 weeks of liquid food only).

I will still need one more surgery, but it should be a small thing compared to this one –Β  no osteotomies involved anymore.

And here, ladies and gentlemen, I present the results:

Of course there is some makeup involved this time, but overally, I am really pleased with the results. The overbite and pugface is gone.

Ok guys, I apologize, that I havent been posting for a while, but my life has not been so interesting anyway. I am still doing all the ortho stuff with my teeth, I am still working and I still spend most of my free time with a boring life of a writer, lol.

This is me now. My upper jaw is wider than before and my hair is hennaed red, haha. I love my red hair, even though this pic is freshly hennaed and the color oxidized a little and is darker now. (Excuse the zero makeup bad skin pic, but I am pre-op, I do not care for warpaint atm, also the hair happens to messy after dry-blowing, lol).


Anyway, my teeth are lined up and ready for a new surgery – a maxillary advancement in a Le Fort I line. In other words, they cut my upper jaw off in the same place they did before, but this time they move it forwards and give me an actual bite. I mean hey, I have never had a bite that really touches, it will be a completely new thing for me.Β  Also I am hoping that it will stop all the annoying headaches and migraines I have been having all day the few last months. If things go well, no more dizziness, no moer headaches, no more extremely sore jaws. It will feel like heaven πŸ˜€

Another good news is that I actually finished Kiseki, my brand new urban fantasy book, about a week ago and moved to editing. I already have a publisher who wants to give it a try and read through it, so we will see if he likes it or not. I have another one in my sleeve, but the one I am hoping for is one of the biggest publishing houses in my country and I was lucky enough to be able to meet with the director and introduce the idea of my book to him.

Anyway, I am off to hospital tomorrow at 5 pm and my surgery takes place around 8:00 am on Monday the 1st June.

Wish me luck guys, I am going to need it.

PS: Yes, I admit it, I am a little scared here. But trying to stay positive until I wake up from the surgery πŸ™‚